Day 2: What if you stayed this time?

Mood: Restless 

Song: Stay by Shakespears Sister

Title Taken from the Movie: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

"Clementine: Joely? What if you stayed this time?
Joel: I walked out the door. There’s no memory left.
Clementine: Come back and make up a good-bye, at least.
Clementine: Let’s pretend we had one.
Clementine: Bye, Joel.
Joel: I love you.
Clementine: Meet me in Montauk."

I wish there was a device similar to the Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind's memory-erasing machine.

So that the sound of your voice won't hold any value. 

A few days ago... you thought I had gone home and sent me a message through email

you greeted me with a "Happy Birthday" wish. 

I thought I was just dreaming

In my wildest dreams, I wanted you to remember that special day

and that once upon a time, I wanted to spend it with you. 

I wasn't prepared for the hurt and the longing to come rushing back

I wanted you to take the leap

and spend the day with me..

..like in the original plan

but then you said the words I've always hated to hear from you

"Sorry it ended this way

but then it's better this way, i guess.

Take care. Always take care."

 Why are you always sorry?

Was everything we had sorry-inducing?

 I wanted to say:

If I asked you to stay

just for a day

would you take the leap 

and pretend with me

that we could be together?

would you stay this time?

But I didn't say any of those. 

I just said:

"Thanks. 

Take care!"