Day 365: And so I came to see him and listen for awhile

Mood: Terribly Depressed
Song: Killing Me Softly


I don't even realize the tears on my face
Until I felt wetness on my cheeks
I can't believe that after a year of being so heartbroken,
that I'm still terribly sad about you

I met up with you a few days ago
to celebrate an event
and although a few days before it you seem happy to share that day with me
on the day itself, i felt you pull away

we met up, anyway.
i had to wait for you.
and i felt foolish for waiting.
like i insinuated myself onto your day
and you had to travel far away just to meet up with me

you suggested that we don't meet up next year
and i wanted to cry right there and then
because although i have plans of not seeing you again
after I totally leave
I wasn't planning to be "let go" on that special day

You asked me if I really plan on continuing with my plans of leaving
and I told you that I do...it's just that timing is not right.
You said you will be relieved because you won't have to worry about me
or the effect I have in your life

Now, I feel really terrible.
I feel really sad.
I hate you.
and yet I feel like I don't know what I should feel anymore.

Day 338: You Look So Different but Feel the Same

Mood: Sensual

Title Taken from Song: Runaway by Maroon 5

Why do you say the right things?

To another girl, it would've been JUST cute

But to me...you hit all the right buttons

and melt my cold heart

shake my solid world

rock my plain line

and consume my being intensely.

I am now wondering

Maybe we just have this chemicals that merge, oh so rightfully

and our words and way of thinking just seem to rhyme perfectly

and they way we touch just mold into one sweep

Say the words and I just drown

Touch me and I disintegrate

I feel like I just want to stay in your tender hug

for the rest of my life.

You said I'm like food that you want to taste relentlessly

Your kiss was so passionate

like my lips burned from your hunger

my body aches with controlled sensation

that is so intense it consumes me like fire

and i feel like combustible and oh so ductile

touch me and my insides start to accommodate

just stare at me and my heart palpitates

and my arms will start opening wide 

so you can have your way with me