Day 380: When you See My Face, Hope it Gives You Hell

Mood: Heartbroken and Angry

Title Taken From the Song: Gives You Hell by The All-American Rejects

I want to run away

I feel this anger

like water that I've kept hidden behind a dam

but the Dam is about to crack

anytime soon

I want to spare you from my explosive anger

I guess I still care about you

and I am still trying to save you

or to spare you

but sometimes, I feel like giving you what you deserve

I can't go on like this. 

I have to go even if it is a premature departure. 

Even if it is so impractical of me

and so unlikely of me

I just have to spare my heart of this agony

you're putting me through again

What the hell do you want, anyway?

How dare you shake my stable world

This kind of stability I have only reached 

after a long time of conditioning myself

Just because your mind is so twisted

and so messed up

you shouldn't include me in your twists and confused life

go work on your stupid self

You are so weak-willed. 

You are so easily influenced

It's like you don't have your own mind to use

and you let other people think for you. 

I am so pissed. 

I feel like I can't let this go without extracting revenge. 

I feel like I need to give you what you deserve

you stupid guy. 

i hate you soooooooooooooooooooo much. 

Day 374 (Jan 9): Don't You Think We Oughta Know by Now

Mood: Pensive
Title taken from the Song: Slow Dancing in a Burning Room by John Mayer

These days I just want to slap myself.

How can things go back to the same thing?
You and me.
Staring at each other and refusing to let each other go?

I want to reach the day when I will grow tired of you.
Because I've been getting this feeling that I can love you
so intensely that it will consume me wholly.

And I cant afford to have that happen.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do.
I know that it's wrong and right.
I feel that it is wrong and right.

Darn it.