Day 220: You've been praying for a remedy

Mood: Tearful

Title taken from the Song: Drown by Carolina Liar

Last week has been a week of jealousy.

You don't deserve it, I know.

And I don't deserve to feel this misery

After all, I do not know you anymore

I was so mad at myself but I realized I needed to feel this

So I can finally shut up 

So I can look at myself and realized how ridiculous I've been 

for being so envious and jealous that you're befriending my friend

I hate it when people mention your name

I long for the day when I won't hurt anymore

I wish that you'll experience what I'm feeling

and I hope that you'll crave and miss me like hell

I wish that you'll dream of me non-stop

and You'll wake up frustrated 

Because you'll wonder if you're crazy

I wish you'll be full of regrets

I wish I will have the time 

when the world turns around

and it's my turn to speak

I will tell you everything

but by then, I'll be stronger

and even if I will still love you

I won't want you anymore

I hate you. I truly hate you.