Day 199: Lost Like Some Forgotten Dream

Mood: Calm

Title taken from the Song: Real Love by The Beatles

I was so busy this week and this offered me a small window to help myself forget you

In my mind, I created a goodbye scene:

We were at a mart, standing behind the fridge

pretending to get a drink

I was behind you as you face the glass door

I told you: "Stand there. Stay put and don't EVER turn around."

My head dropped a little until my forehead touched your back

I let my head lean onto you that way

and I slowly ran my hands from your shoulder until it found its way into your hands

I clasped your hands and I closed my eyes

I started crying, silently. 

And you just stood there...feeling my tears 

you grabbed my arms and wrapped it in your middle section

You tried to turn but I panicked and asked you to stay

I started talking about my feelings

and how wonderful you were

and how much you've added meaning to my life

and after pouring out my soul

I asked you to do one last favor

I needed you to stand there for 60 seconds. 

Do not ever turn

You can turn around after the 60 seconds have lapsed

By then, I'll be gone and I won't look back

I was happy with my imaginary goodbye scene

Dramatic but fitting. 

I saw you today

I was happy because you stayed in the same area I was in

You were wearing red

and you look like a red king crab

I made a really quick about-face when I saw you

I know, I know. Stupid move. 

Then I didn't know where to go

I kept walking randomly and I think you noticed that

I suddenly felt stupid and decided to quit my stupid rattle act

I played songs that made me feel better

It so timely that I was playing Fiona Apple's Across the Universe

When I turned, there you were

I was happy with my reaction

I didn't feel the need to run to you 

and hug you

although I wanted you

i think i enjoy moving on ^_^ 

you'll always be in my heart though... 

you'll be my secret